So, last week, I blogged about how I started to keep a food diary. And although I have not yet received this “lift altering” diet (note the sarcasm), I was shocked (I think) by just how much I was eating. It wasn’t as much as I thought, but it is still way more than what it needs to be. If you consider that before falling pregnant, I had maybe one full meal a day with some grazing and snacking in between – now I am having three full meals, with a lot of grazing and snacking in-between. I can easily say that I am eating maybe three times what I used to eat, which maybe could explain why I am still 10 kg’s heavier than what I was…
The thought that formed in my head that we need to eat just enough to sustain our lives – we don’t live to sustain our eating.
And so far, I have been pleasantly surprised – I am eating a lot more than what I need to. I can see that. We have sent my eating diary through to whomever will be giving me a diet to aid my starvation needs.
Do I surrender?
Yesterday, I received a blog post from Sheila Wray Gregoire and basically she was saying that we embrace our sexuality by surrendering to God and trusting in Him. Everything she wrote about embracing your sexuality and using excuses such as I’m British is just that – an excuse can apply to me and my anxiety. I can’t ever use the excuse that I can’t lose weight because I am fearful or anxious – because that is just an excuse. I need to surrender myself to the word of God and to allowing God to change my heart and my mind to being more like Christ.
And somehow I can’t image Christ being overweight, or obese, or battling eating disorders.
And so, as I persevere, I remember what God’s word says:
Be perfect therefore as your Heavenly Father is perfect. Matthew 5:48