I find it so ironic that I have gone from the naturally slender one in the group, to the largest one. Just this past weekend, a friend took a photo of me and hubby standing together. And I was shocked. I had no idea that I had gotten so huge. (Of course, it doesn’t help when one of the ladies in the group kept on bragging about how beautiful her body is.) But, I was the smallest in the group, and I am now by far the largest. In my mind, although I know on one level that I have a vast amount of excess weight, I still think of myself as that skinny girl from way back – and I think that is probably why I am battling to lose this weight. I don’t see myself as being so huge; in my mind’s eye I am still that skinny little girl… I won’t really have the victory if I don’t acknowledge it, see it, and then move to where I want to be.
So, besides for signing up for Boot Camp (I have my first session tomorrow and I am so, so nervous – I have no idea what to expect), I think I also need to practice the fine art of saying NO! Before I fell pregnant and gained all this weight, I always used to say No.
- No thank you to the extra glass of wine;
- No thank you to desert;
- No thank you to chocolate (I never used to have a sweet tooth – I have since honed the skill of needing a chocolate on a regular basis);
- Sometimes even no thank you to breakfast…
Now, I say yes to everything. Sometimes even to seconds and thirds…
Now, I need to start saying No. I suppose there will be many times I will fall – saying yes to chocolate is a lot easier to learn than saying no to chocolate… But, I am trying. Just last night I got a free smoothie from Kauai and whereas I would normally have a smoothie AND then still have supper, I only had a small bite of supper. I was starving when I went to bed, but I made it through and only had my breakfast this morning. It’s not much – but I do hope it is a step in the right direction.
The character trait needed for this is perseverance: to keep practicing the fine art of saying, “No, thank you” as opposed to saying yes to everything edible.