I surrender…

I want what I had before I fell pregnant.  I mean, I want my life as it is now – I just want the body I had before I fell pregnant.  Before pregnancy gave me the opportunity of defeating what turned out to be nothing more than my own negative thinking and lies.

But, so much has changed since that time that I don’t even know if it is possible to go back.

Only forward...

My life and diet now is so different to what it once was and I deeply regret believing the lies.

However…

I know that God is in the business of redemption, of wholeness, of restoration…  And so I cannot fight this battle anymore.  Not on my own.  I need help, I need guidance, I need grace.

And so I surrender to God and ask Him to show me, to teach me, to guide me – to teach me self-control and to glorify Him.  This fight I can no longer do on my own…

I surrender…